I’ve been wanting to post about so many things but I’ve been so busy writing essays and assignments, I haven’t had time to write something. Considering I’m currently in this situation and have been before…and also the fact exam season is approaching, I feel this blog is just right.
There’s something that has been worrying me lately, how people really don’t take stress and depression (mental health in general) seriously. Besides the stigma around mental health, I really think its mostly about how people really don’t consider it to be a big deal.
When I used to live in Toronto, I was going through a very difficult time. My parents were getting a divorce, a former boyfriend was living in another continent, I strongly disliked my school. I felt lost. I never saw a doctor but I know now I was depressed. I never considered what I was going through to be a big deal, least big enough to cause depression. After all I’m a very happy and upbeat person. I had mood swings, cried myself to sleep, my confidence decreased, I barely wanted to go out. It sucked. But I never thought to see a therapist. I thought I was ok.
At the beginning of the 2014-15 school year, I went to an emotional regulation workshop that my school offered for 6-8 weeks. It was through these workshops that I was able to understand that no one else goes through my pain. I had the ability to understand these terms and able to regulate their presence in my body. I got help. But I wish I got help sooner. Just because I’ve never been clinically diagnosed doesn’t make what I’ve been through any less painful than those who have. We experience things differently.
I’ve encountered several people who have and are depressed or just going through an unstable time. I really encourage you to seek help. Professionally or medically or just by talking to a friend. Don’t ever think that what you are going through is silly because only you know your limits, weaknesses and strengths. Getting help is not a weakness, it’s a strength.
The thing about stress that I really dislike, is how people say “oh just calm down. No need to stress. There’s nothing to stress about. Chill out”. Listen, if I could control every ounce of my stress, I would make stress my bitch. There are times where it sneaks in and you can’t control it. It just happens. It’s very important to learn how to control it when it does manage to sneak it. We’re barely educated on how to approach these issues, its a choice to seek this information. But I believe we should be taught of the consequences these things have on our bodies, our mind and personality.
I feel like the words “that’s so depressing” and “that’s so stressful” has lower the expectations of what depression and stress truly are. By over using these words their value, their meaning and their perception gets diminished. This is the same thing when the word gay or fat gets over used. It’s giving meaning to something that is not, which later causes that term to carry stigma.
One of the main reasons why I wanted to write this is because last night, a huge migraine sent me to the hospital. I’ve had headaches and migraines before but never painful enough to go to the hospital. A devastating pain on my neck escalated to cause a horrible pain on my left ear, my arm was very weak and that throbbing just wouldn’t stop. Though I later found out I have a minor case of sinusitis, I believe that the stress I was going through this week manifested itself in this form. Today is my day of rest… so I shall say bye and go watch Friends now 🙂 Take care of yourself!
Question for you: what do you do to destress? What are your thoughts on this matter? Any experience that you want to share?